The Most Amazing Thing happened to me this morning...
And I would like to sincerely share my testimony about it.
I awoke feeling anxious and fearful.
Of what?
I'm not quite sure.
But I know that my heart was beating faster than it normally does
and my mind seemed to be skipping from one uneasy thought to the next.
My stomach felt sick.
I got in the shower, hoping that would relax me.
It didn't.
I decided to start reading a book called "Coping with Anxiety"
(Thank you Kimberly Bennet)
Hoping that would help.
Although the relaxation breathing and meditating did calm me down a bit
it didn't seem to get at the root of my discomfort.
And then my roommate Heather came in, turned on byutv and Elder Uchtdorf was speaking.
http://www.lds.org/general-conference/2009/10/the-love-of-god?lang=eng
The talk was titled "The Love of God".
We listened intently and soon, tears came to my eyes.
I don't remember what he was talking about exactly, but he said the words,
"...try, and keep on trying."
That was just what I needed to hear.
I needed to hear that my Heavenly Father will continue to love me.
He wants me to try, and keep trying...and he'll always help me.
I went into my room, and listened to my "self-talk".
It was completely different from before.
I was COUNTING BLESSINGS.
I was ACKNOWLEDGING POSITIVE ATTRIBUTES of others instead of their shortcomings.
I wanted to be around others, instead of by myself.
I felt HAPPY and PEACEFUL.
I asked myself, what changed?
How did this happen?
Why did I feel so bad, and then feel so different?
I know why, and I want you to know that I know.
It's because:
I have a loving Father in Heaven.
Who helps me day to day, and moment to moment.
He knows my fears and trials.
He knows the intents of my heart.
He knows that I want to know Him and follow Him.
The Love of the Savior transforms our hearts when we cannot do it ourselves.
His love is infinite and penetrating.
I began to realize that all of the attributes I've been blogging about,
I only have those when I have the Love of the Savior in my heart.
He helps me grow and learn.
HE helps me Become Better.
